I believe that in general people do not meet by chance. Every person who walks in your soul does it with a purpose. You have to be prepared for anything, to hope for the best and to expect the worst. Because these are the people. Some will cause you pain, others will bring smiles on your face, some will sweeten your coffee, and with others you will be able to quietly watch that sunset you have been dreaming of for half a year.
Everyone sees you as a strong person, everyone tells you that you have no soul. They do not know how many struggles take place daily in your soul. They do not know what a continuous war with yourself means. You have been told so many times that you are bad when you have not been, that you have embraced this idea and you have been worse than the one below. You were arguing with him and getting him out of debt.
You cut the stairs to heaven for some, you left your soul behind and you dug pits for all those who claimed to want the best for you. You've always been like that. Good to the end or so bad that those around you regretted knowing you. Some time ago you cared what they thought, but now you only care what you think.
Whether you loved or hated you didn't know how to do it half-heartedly. No matter how you stepped on a man standing at one point he came back. He came back for you, for the way you are and because you always managed to make him feel. But you have never been there. You know what a midnight text message with "I miss you" means and you know just as well how to ignore it. Those are the people who deserve to look for you anywhere except at the door of your soul. They always miss who you were, but when they come back they don't realize that you haven't been the same for a long time.
And you miss it. It is never seen, it is never felt. You miss it and refuse to come back. You know very well that the future has no time for regrets. You know that time passes too fast, memories are erased and the soul changes. You know how to fight like no one would ever know how to do. Until there are no reasons to stay. Then you leave. All. Without looking at what you leave behind, without caring about others, without caring about the future, plans, feelings.
You know that being strong is not easy. Everything you get from life comes at a cost. For this reason, behind a woman who is strong is all that is worse. Mistakes that were never forgiven, loves that died before sunset, words that can never be forgotten, tears more bitter than salty, pains that left you breathless, victories and failures…
